By Amaya Gayle
Even though we say we don’t, most of us are looking for an escape hatch. We call it all sorts of things: more money, a new guy or gal to call our own, a better higher paying or more meaningful job, your preferred President, the fulfillment of a death wish, enlightenment … basically anything we think of as winning, as a remedy to ease the pain, to salve the wounds, as a way for life to be better than it is right now — that’s the escape hatch we seek.
Each of them, all of them, are just different versions of the game, part of the illusion or winning and losing. They are a win but only in the column titled ‘Matrix.”
There is only one way out of the Gordian knot — the knot that isn’t at all what we think it is — that isn’t even a knot — and that is to see the Matrix for what it is.
Many of us say we know, that we’ve seen it, that we are no longer held hostage by our seriousness about life. For some of us, it may even have a bit of truth to it, but before you pat yourself too hard on the back, let me offer a few questions to consider.
Have you realized that you are not in control even though it seems absolutely true? Do you think that all those ‘others’ are too?
Has it dawned on you what that means if you’re not?
What about mistakes? Are they possible? Is it possible that all those things you don’t like aren’t mistakes even though they look just like they have to be?
Can you stand right in the middle of your life’s ups and downs, regardless of how high and how low, and simply experience them, or do you still run, still argue with life … and when you run, when you argue, can you see the game that’s in play? Is it funny or does it piss your off … and if it pisses you off, can you find that funny?
Does your heart swell with compassion for the common human condition, the tightly held belief in consensus reality? Can you see that everyone and everything is perpetually altered by aliveness itself, albeit often too incrementally to measure by months and years … and seeing that, can you grasp the beauty and the beast that is inherent to fixing yourself and others, even while your precious ‘person’ality goes about fixing and changing all those about you?
Life IS the Matrix. Awareness implies duality. There is no way out. There is only the recognition of what it is, what life is, what you are.
Living life as you are, as it is, allows a seeing, a noticing, a recognition that is not readily available while you are arguing with or running from life. When you are simply here you are consciously hereness, you are consciously awareness, you are consciously aliveness. You aren’t fooled by the illusion. You live within the illusion but aren’t hooked by it.
When you are running and arguing you are still hereness, awareness, aliveness. You just aren’t aware of the majesty. You don’t know any better. The illusion and you are dancing partners in a song without end, a song that repeats itself in new creative ways, hooking you, blinding you. If you can’t see what is real (well real as real as words can express) … it’s hard to be anything but a fool and think you are flying free.
There is no appropriate bio for Amaya Gayle. She doesn’t exist other than as an expression of Consciousness Itself. Talking about her in biographical terms is a disservice to the truth and to anyone who might be led to believe in such nonsense. None of us exist, not in the way we think. Ideas spring into words. Words flow onto paper and yet no one writes them. They simply appear fully formed. Looking at her you would swear this is a lie. She’s there after all, but honestly, she’s not. Bios normally wax on about accomplishments and beliefs, happenings in time and space. She has never accomplished anything, has no beliefs and like you was never born and will never die. Engage with Amaya at your own risk.
